My Heart is Leaking

Damaged by attackers
Unseen but so near
My heart took moment
To calculate arrears*

It took pain to reach a verdict
To calculate and see
What was truly broken
What changes there would be

A hundred deeply risen
Sighs let slowly out
Heartache's blood is different
But pools inside as doubt

I let it leak out thickly
Relieving as it spread
Opening the dreaded
Pit within my head

At this level opus**
Management and deed
Are driven automatically
By hostility and greed

My heart is leaking sadness
Disappointment and it's seed
Belief that pure inentions
Protect those most in need

-Kelly Voelker


*arrears -  that which is owed and should have been paid earlier
**opus - large scale. creation

Seeking Freedom and a Meal

The rights of simple humans
Seeking freedom and a meal
Serve pay buy, serve pay buy,
You're late and fees are due
You failed to submit proof of
Your existence in our loop.

-Kelly Voelker

I Prefer Robots

I prefer robots to
Programmed adults
Who corporate speak to me
Who shun those who revolt

I prefer robots to
Bankers and doctors
Real Estate brokers
Accountants and jokers

I prefer robots to
Checkouts and lines
I prefer logic
Than staff management whines

I'd rather have robots
Than be put on hold
To listen to problems
A person disclosed

I'm becoming a robot
No time for down time
Only to work more
On other's timelines.

-Kelly Voelker

Black Mirror

On the crystalline shore
By daylight's focus
My mind plays at
Organizing sandcastles and
Orderly trenches to control
Liquid thought attempting
To control direction
Attempting to make the liquid
Flow towards my will

Under the mercurial moon
The weight of the oceans
In broad strokes and by the
Order of the cosmos
Timely tides perform their duty
Claiming the shores again
Erasing all the wasted thoughts
Erasing all the attempts at order
Refreshing all that trust invisible laws

Blanket my failed attempts to solve
The pointless puzzles of task and design
Soak apart my ability to control
Remind me to gaze upon the divine
Reflections of the blank edge of
Endless emotions and thoughts

It wasn't right that time or the next
It only will be correct at the very moment
The Earth and Moon know
When the shy light shows only
What is necessary
Masking the drama of life and nature
So only the perfection of timeless
Ages is before me
Like a sunset or sunrise
The tides correct and soothe
The pointless toiling of thought

Merit not from details scrolled
On a canvas of shifting sand
Gain from basking in the
Plasma moving 'round me
Under the black mirror of
Mystery and depths unrealized
Kept for another day
As a treasure under the sea.

-Kelly Voelker

Magic of Tea

The elixir of fairies

Lent from leaves

Immersed wet

Dangled in sweetness

Through spider's web net

Blue green taste forest

Yellow-green sun

Yellow flowers lighten

Purple ones numb

The darkest of problems

In mind or entwined

Through all of our weakness

Green goodness spins kind.

-Kelly Voelker

Two Little Green Birds

After months, a pattern's end
A new cycle came
To melt and to mend
Patient and tame
An innocence squeaked
From tiny throats
From tiny beaks

A delicate message
From a source has split
Formed into two birds
In my garden lit
A gentle new cycle
Has come home to roost
I didn't quite realize
I must have needed a boost.

-Kelly Voelker

November

A golden month of respite

After longer trials

After tested tenure

After nested sparrow

The common newest life form

Now noticed for it's strength

Now noticed for adapting

To tests of rolling fate

In numbers knowing instinct

Tempers chaos' shroud

We all fly towards freedom

Through branches' varied form.

-Kelly Voelker

Peace of Mind

I have a quiet mind
A comfort porch
In sunset's shine

I have a quiet man
A patient place
To return to and

A quiet heart
A neutral will
Allowing all to stay and stand

A peaceful way
Tall trees and shade
Gentle breeze after lulls displayed

-Kelly Voelker

Wonder

The gracefulness of demeanor
The delicate way of birds
Contrasting to survival's way
So brutish and absurd

Following the patterns
Of trees and leaves and flowers
Thinking like a river
Contemplating things for hours

Feeling textures distant
Seeing taste and sound
Noticing the difference
Between hunting and the hound

-Kelly Voelker


brutish - coarse, cruel, stupid

wonder - a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable

The Flowering of the Mind

The flowering of the body

Is apparent and is seen

Following prognosis

Climbs more quickly when in teens

The flowering of the mind

Is unexpected to achieve

In process then through gnosis

Explodes beyond what one believed

Hidden noted humans

Throughout time have failed the test

Knowing their experience

And behavior was suspect

Don't gauge your own awareness

By others in dispair 

Don't regulate enthusiasm's

Way of exceeding 'self aware'

-Kelly Voelker

prognosis - a forecast of the likely outcome of a situation

gnosis - knowledge of spiritual matters; mystical knowledge.

self aware - good knowledge and judgment about yourself

Virtue

All that remains after
Fire and flood
Testing the framework
Testing my blood

The code is of virtue
I have a strong hold
On what it must feel like
To be valiant and bold

I no longer doubt
What I am made of
I feel the perfection
Of darkness made old

The newest obsession
Is of goodness and deed
Born of complexity
Ego and greed

No one can know virtue
Until one has bloomed
From dirt and adversity
To wholeness now plumed

The newness of virtue
The foundation of strength
The confidence of wisdom
Earned and not faked.

-Kelly Voelker

What has me Agitated

What has me agitated
Isn't what it seems or kind
What has me agitated
Isn't senseless, mean or blind

On the innermost and unused
Reaches of my soul
A sensitive, protective mind
Wants so to control

Who and what are near me
Who and what will pass
Foreseeing opposition
Alerting senses last

What it sees is eminent
Near and is the prize
For a long term process
A cycle's end in time

Can I ride the ending
Before it's even written
Expecting certain changes
Expecting to be bitten

As I take the reward
For lasting through these tests
Will the rules return to
The patterns I know best?

-Kelly Voelker

agitated - feeling or appearing troubled or nervous
eminent - used to emphasize the presence of a positive quality